It has been such a long time since I’ve made a blog post. Apologies for the long wait. Life has been such a roller-coaster, and I haven’t been able to take the time out to document my journey so far. But I’m back, and ready to give you all an update!
In my last blog post, I think I spoke about the difficulties I was having in securing an Assistant Psychologist (AP) post. From November last year till January, I was applying for jobs every single day! I think in total I had 10 interviews, but was not successful. I had turned down a few Support worker (SW) roles as I wanted an AP post only, but I decided to humble myself, and go for the interview which appealed to me the most, and I was successful! 30 minutes after my interview. I was shocked, relived, happy, but still not content. Not content with the SW role as it was not what I wanted originally, but I was happy that I was able to leave my TA job and venture into something different, which would ultimately, shaped the beginning of my career.I think it is important to address – there is absolutely nothing wrong with a Support Worker role. The only reason why I was not going for it, was because I have gained so much relevant clinical experience over the years that I wanted a role with more of a challenge.
Obviously due to legal matters, politics within the nhs lol, and just being mindful and respectful, I will not speak about the individuals (staff and patients) I have worked with and the NHS trust I work for.
As a Support Worker, I worked in a crisis team, supporting clinicians with delivering intensive, recovery focused interventions to support children and young people who are experiencing an acute mental health crisis and who require intensive input in order to remain in the community, averting hospital admission where possible. It is a brand new service which is being implemented all over London, and I was so happy to be a part of this. I had learnt so much in terms of acute mental health presentations within young people, the protocols of risk assessments within an A&E setting, and becoming familiar with the day to day struggle our young people are exposed to within this current society. My current team have been amazing in supporting me and instilling the confidence needed to fulfil my role.
After the third month of my role, I began to realise that I was not particularly happy. I believe in myself and know I will make a great practitioner, but I was not able to demonstrate this in my new role. I felt that there was not much of a structure for my role within the team, and I struggled to gain clinical experience. I knew this would take time, and I would need to exercise patience (which I did lol) but I just did not want to be in a cycle where I stay in a job and “wait it out” when I could be putting my time and effort into other things. Deep down, I wanted a new job, and so I waited a few months until I started the job search … again!
I was adamant that I wanted an AP post, and was not going to settle for anything else. I have gained so much clinical experience that I was not willing to do any more honorary work. I just wanted to secure a new job and get on with my career. This period of my life has been the biggest test of strength as of yet. I cant even describe how hard the last few months have been, going to interview upon interview and not being successful. The emotional backlash of it has been hard to deal with and having to quickly pick yourself up, and prep for the next interview has been extremely difficult. But I am sooo pleased to say that I have finally secured an AP post – after 12 interviews!!!
I am going to talk about this in a new post as I think it is important for those following me on this journey or going through it to understand the interview processes of an AP.
Everyone’s journey is different, and I really can’t believe it has taken me this long to get here. But I am so grateful that it has all worked out, and I hope to explain in greater detail in my next post x